"Think positive Jess."
“Be confident Jess”
And every time I try or feel like I’m getting somewhere, someone sends me 10 feet back. And I’m just tired.
For the first time in a while, I let someone in easily. I was so so happy. And then that was it. It lasted a few days and then he was gone, his broken promises lying on the floor. Seriously if someone isn’t important to you, don’t fucking tell them they are. Why would you tell me you like me and then disappear? Like why put me through that kind of shit when I’m already fucking fragile!? I let you nestle your way into my heart and set up residence there. But you couldn’t even say goodbye. Its not like its been a day and im freaking out..its been 5 days and youre all always on your phones. So dont even. And this why people fucking freak me out and I don’t let anyone in and I barely trust anyone. This. This is why. What’s worse is it wasn’t even just one of you. But three of you. First Steven Renade and Steph. Now you three? I’m done. I’m never getting attached ever fucking again because everyone always leaves.
Yet, you’re always there. When everyone turns their backs there you are with your arms open. I fucking love you and can’t wait for you to be home.
people who can open cereal boxes perfectly are not to be trusted